this year im really excited for christmas.
maybe cuz everything's just in the right place y'know.
Mariah Carey's christmas album is like on replay.
the snow is so wonderfully perfect this year.
and my family put the decorations up.
my dad doing the technical party - the lights.
of course. my mom getting all the handy-dandy stuff together - tape, scissors, clean-up ahaha
and me and my little sister putting everything in its place.
i dont know. maybe cuz this year the mood at our house is really great.
and im just really happy and excited haha
God please give your blessing to the world this Christmas and many to come for the New Year. Please make sure that there is no suffering, sadness, death, loneliness and negativity at this time. If someone is suffering, please make sure that they are found so we can offer our hands to them for warmth.
In the name of Jesus our Lord, I pray
Amen.
-joy to the world : mariah carey
Monday, December 20, 2010
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Reminiscin' over.. (8)
yesterday, i went to visit my piano teacher.
I had quit piano about 4 years ago. and haven't seen my piano teacher since.
recently, my little sister started learning from her again. but i never got the chance to say hi.
So i went yesterday with a little bouquet for her for christmas, and also, as thanks i guess.
though 4 years may not seem long in words, but in reality, it was quite the gap.
it was quite emotional and i wasn't expecting that. I didn't realize until then how close we were and how much we had together.
She watched me grow up and has been with me throughout the years since i was 6 years old. Although i left her for two years to study with a Chinese teacher, i came back to her and started my official piano education in terms of examinations. It was with her and at that time we began our journey through the piano requirement levels, year by year, half year by half year, while seeing each other week by week every thursday at 4PM.
she told me how i was really special to her, and a brilliant student in piano. how she, after 4 years, did not forget the song i played which gave her goosebumps. and how she never had another student like me and that i was the best.
y'know those things that you dont say to each other while you're going through it, or you don't really emphasize it while you're in the present. but when that time has become the past and you sit down and reminisce, you mention it and the significance and the thoughts of each other at that time.
and thats when you realize how dear it is. She was like my mother - my mother of music, who knew me inside and out. She said that i was a perfectionist of every detail. because i cared so much to not care. because i was so sensitive. it was then that i almost broke down because she knew so much about me just through music and i realized how much we held of each other. I am not one to speak about myself and for her to know that, it really touched me. my mother then mentioned that even now, I would sometimes play the piano and she said of course, because it has become ingrained in my life - music and the piano. and like my mother said, it was because she had such an influence over me.
because of what she had said, of how much ... love, respect, and endearment she had for me, it really made me want to work harder. become a better person; just because of what she said.
thinking back now haha, really we shared so much in our one hour per week lessons. after school, i'd be so tired i'd be half asleep in her lessons. she would then give me mint chocolate to try to wake me up. and then there were times i'd get so irritated at her for correcting me so many times (when the fault was obviously mine haha). there were also times where she would show me how the piece was played. i'd scoot over on the piano seat and she would move in and start her magic. those times were we had ear tests and i'd sit facing the window, staring at the snow filled landscapes and red trailer-trucks driving by, while struggling to learn what she was playing for me so i can play it back by ear. how i completely sucked and she'd try to help me by playing the melody louder, and then giving me the hint to the first note haha. oh and the neighbour's cat that would always come and sleep on her couch and she'd tell us how it hates men by likes girls. i even remember that embarrassing time where my dad sang the Red River song that i played when she still taught at the music school. LOL oh maan.
and ya.. y'know those little things.
it was really nice seeing her again. i didn't expect i would get this sorta ... enlightment ahaha.
its nice, being able to really reminiscence about things. it gives you a new sense of direction instead of being so aimless in life. it also made me feel that to have gotten to this point today, i didn't just stumble over and end up here but, i was lead here, and walked a distinct path that made up who i am. that i had a purpose. and that i have a purpose.
I am really thankful to her. she was the one who gave me the only hope that i have in my life - music. its the one thing that no matter what: how i am beaten down, no matter how many things have been taken away, no matter how much and what i lose, music is the one thing that i would always have by my sideuntil i die even after death.
God please give her happiness and keep her safe and healthy.
In the name of Jesus our Lord, I pray
Amen
-Friend - Chingu (친구) : T.O.P & TaeYang (태양) Big Bang (빅뱅)
I had quit piano about 4 years ago. and haven't seen my piano teacher since.
recently, my little sister started learning from her again. but i never got the chance to say hi.
So i went yesterday with a little bouquet for her for christmas, and also, as thanks i guess.
though 4 years may not seem long in words, but in reality, it was quite the gap.
it was quite emotional and i wasn't expecting that. I didn't realize until then how close we were and how much we had together.
She watched me grow up and has been with me throughout the years since i was 6 years old. Although i left her for two years to study with a Chinese teacher, i came back to her and started my official piano education in terms of examinations. It was with her and at that time we began our journey through the piano requirement levels, year by year, half year by half year, while seeing each other week by week every thursday at 4PM.
she told me how i was really special to her, and a brilliant student in piano. how she, after 4 years, did not forget the song i played which gave her goosebumps. and how she never had another student like me and that i was the best.
y'know those things that you dont say to each other while you're going through it, or you don't really emphasize it while you're in the present. but when that time has become the past and you sit down and reminisce, you mention it and the significance and the thoughts of each other at that time.
and thats when you realize how dear it is. She was like my mother - my mother of music, who knew me inside and out. She said that i was a perfectionist of every detail. because i cared so much to not care. because i was so sensitive. it was then that i almost broke down because she knew so much about me just through music and i realized how much we held of each other. I am not one to speak about myself and for her to know that, it really touched me. my mother then mentioned that even now, I would sometimes play the piano and she said of course, because it has become ingrained in my life - music and the piano. and like my mother said, it was because she had such an influence over me.
because of what she had said, of how much ... love, respect, and endearment she had for me, it really made me want to work harder. become a better person; just because of what she said.
thinking back now haha, really we shared so much in our one hour per week lessons. after school, i'd be so tired i'd be half asleep in her lessons. she would then give me mint chocolate to try to wake me up. and then there were times i'd get so irritated at her for correcting me so many times (when the fault was obviously mine haha). there were also times where she would show me how the piece was played. i'd scoot over on the piano seat and she would move in and start her magic. those times were we had ear tests and i'd sit facing the window, staring at the snow filled landscapes and red trailer-trucks driving by, while struggling to learn what she was playing for me so i can play it back by ear. how i completely sucked and she'd try to help me by playing the melody louder, and then giving me the hint to the first note haha. oh and the neighbour's cat that would always come and sleep on her couch and she'd tell us how it hates men by likes girls. i even remember that embarrassing time where my dad sang the Red River song that i played when she still taught at the music school. LOL oh maan.
and ya.. y'know those little things.
it was really nice seeing her again. i didn't expect i would get this sorta ... enlightment ahaha.
its nice, being able to really reminiscence about things. it gives you a new sense of direction instead of being so aimless in life. it also made me feel that to have gotten to this point today, i didn't just stumble over and end up here but, i was lead here, and walked a distinct path that made up who i am. that i had a purpose. and that i have a purpose.
I am really thankful to her. she was the one who gave me the only hope that i have in my life - music. its the one thing that no matter what: how i am beaten down, no matter how many things have been taken away, no matter how much and what i lose, music is the one thing that i would always have by my side
God please give her happiness and keep her safe and healthy.
In the name of Jesus our Lord, I pray
Amen
-Friend - Chingu (친구) : T.O.P & TaeYang (태양) Big Bang (빅뱅)
When We'll Be Together (8)
HoMin is coming back. i'm really happy for them but it really pisses me off that they are called TVXQ, that everyone is refering to them as TVXQ. but they're not. they're HoMin. there is no TVXQ if they are not 5 singing together.
it breaks my heart that when JaeChunSu came back, people were like "JYJ'S BACK"
but when HoMin comes back, people are like "TVXQ'S BACK"
maybe i'm being insecure and immature. but..
i really just miss them. and it just seems that they're never gonna come back as 5
and that no one's fighting for them anymore because as long as they sing and make music, nothing matters.
but.. i still miss the 5.
or maybe the truth is with SM supporting HoMin, they would no doubt receive success.
but JYJ, in a mediocre company, seems to be forgotten more and more.
because even now, before HoMin's album even came out, they have more success than JYJ
if i'm feeling like this ? how do they feel ? regret ? or are they more mature and just feel humble and gracious ?
God, please give them happiness.
In Christ's name,
Amen
-i wanna hold you : dbsk
it breaks my heart that when JaeChunSu came back, people were like "JYJ'S BACK"
but when HoMin comes back, people are like "TVXQ'S BACK"
maybe i'm being insecure and immature. but..
i really just miss them. and it just seems that they're never gonna come back as 5
and that no one's fighting for them anymore because as long as they sing and make music, nothing matters.
but.. i still miss the 5.
or maybe the truth is with SM supporting HoMin, they would no doubt receive success.
but JYJ, in a mediocre company, seems to be forgotten more and more.
because even now, before HoMin's album even came out, they have more success than JYJ
if i'm feeling like this ? how do they feel ? regret ? or are they more mature and just feel humble and gracious ?
God, please give them happiness.
In Christ's name,
Amen
-i wanna hold you : dbsk
Saturday, November 27, 2010
epik high.
so i had my little vocal competition/audition whatevz (i didn't even care enough about it..)
and obviously, being completely unprepared,
having a vocal breakdown for a week for God-knows-what-reason,
and procrastinating and didn't think it was a big thing until i got there,
it was an epic fail.
first of all, i thought it was gonna be like an sm audition,
go to some room, sing, go home, and they call you etc.
but no, it was on stage, in the middle of a mall, with an audience.
YAY !
like i didn't even get dressed properly cuz like in an audition
you shouldn't overdress and have make-up right ?
so i fully went there with sweats (i had jeans underneath, thank god),
boyfriend shirts (i tied the bottom so it looked.. better..), and a
naked face (thank god i just so happened to have left my make-up in my bag).
and uh, suddenly, i had an audience. not good
so obviously i panicked and did. horrible. HORRIBLE. HOR. RI. BLE. lol
but whatever, i still got into this so-called "round-two".
and like my vocal teacher (ya, the same crazy one from my other blog)
keeps making me sing Celine Dion and all these hard songs.
when i obviously have trouble with. I can only pull it off about 98% on a good day.
and this week was just BAD. and i couldn't sing anything.
and he made me sing TO LOVE YOU MORE. TO LOVE YOU MORE.
like ... im just flabbergasted.
LOL well anyways, the aftermath was that the "judges" critiqued and gave advice.
and obviously, being completely unprepared,
having a vocal breakdown for a week for God-knows-what-reason,
and procrastinating and didn't think it was a big thing until i got there,
it was an epic fail.
first of all, i thought it was gonna be like an sm audition,
go to some room, sing, go home, and they call you etc.
but no, it was on stage, in the middle of a mall, with an audience.
YAY !
like i didn't even get dressed properly cuz like in an audition
you shouldn't overdress and have make-up right ?
so i fully went there with sweats (i had jeans underneath, thank god),
boyfriend shirts (i tied the bottom so it looked.. better..), and a
naked face (thank god i just so happened to have left my make-up in my bag).
and uh, suddenly, i had an audience. not good
so obviously i panicked and did. horrible. HORRIBLE. HOR. RI. BLE. lol
but whatever, i still got into this so-called "round-two".
and like my vocal teacher (ya, the same crazy one from my other blog)
keeps making me sing Celine Dion and all these hard songs.
when i obviously have trouble with. I can only pull it off about 98% on a good day.
and this week was just BAD. and i couldn't sing anything.
and he made me sing TO LOVE YOU MORE. TO LOVE YOU MORE.
like ... im just flabbergasted.
LOL well anyways, the aftermath was that the "judges" critiqued and gave advice.
- choose a suitable song (ahem) within your range, so even if you get nervous, you don't lose it
- dont be nervous (cuz thats so easy to do)
- practise
- use the stage, dont just stand there.
So i'm trying to look for a song for me right now. well at least i learned something.
I'm looking for a suitable song to sing now.. hmm..
-slow motion : karina pasian
Strength & Love
i realized that "strong" is a very hard word to achieve.
and it takes a lot of time and... just.. time.
but i also found out today, that im not alone and discarded.
i think this is a good start. but the important things is:
i can start now and i can see where i need to go now.
i love you.. thank you.. [minyi]
-dear. mom : snsd (8)
and it takes a lot of time and... just.. time.
but i also found out today, that im not alone and discarded.
i think this is a good start. but the important things is:
i can start now and i can see where i need to go now.
i love you.. thank you.. [minyi]
-dear. mom : snsd (8)
Friday, November 26, 2010
"I wanna be up there so bad."
I saw Burlesque today. It was utterly, spectacularly amazing.
Christina Aguilera is absolutely, breathtakingly outstanding.
It made me cry, i really look up to her. and i really wish I could sing like her.
She and the movie was such an inspiration. I will work harder.
-last of me : cher (8)
Christina Aguilera is absolutely, breathtakingly outstanding.
It made me cry, i really look up to her. and i really wish I could sing like her.
She and the movie was such an inspiration. I will work harder.
-last of me : cher (8)
Thursday, November 25, 2010
la scieeence.
i just had a dream earlier on that i was being disected by a rapist.
but luckily jaejoong and some other hotty (luka?) came and rescued me.
and there was this gruesome scene were my intestines were in sea of blood in the bathtub.
obvs, i woke up after that.
i wonder if its cuz -dee/ef- said earlier how she disected a grasshopper in bio.
so glad i dont take science aha..
but luckily jaejoong and some other hotty (luka?) came and rescued me.
and there was this gruesome scene were my intestines were in sea of blood in the bathtub.
obvs, i woke up after that.
i wonder if its cuz -dee/ef- said earlier how she disected a grasshopper in bio.
so glad i dont take science aha..
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