revisit

so i take that back
(or maybe im in nature very optimistic)
either way i think the things we do are so contrasting but the same amount of efforts and feelings are the same
i focus on emotional while shes more practical. 
so i think i should be more noticing and understanding in that aspect
but when i look at her i cant help but to feel so "neglected" LOL
so i cant deny what i said before. 
there is still insanity. 
when i hurt myself and i cry, its not outta pain but outta happiness that she cares that im in pain. 
im dense so i need little things like this. 
im sensitive, selfish, ignorant and naive. the perfect ingredients to brew insanity. 
hopefully my other qualities, whatever they are, can stop this. 
i need to mature up. 
siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh


-better in time : leona lewis